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hey guys (:

thanks to all who made my 17th birthday a memorable one (:

i won't go listing names, but rest assured if you remembered, i know, and i really appreciate it (:

don't worry if you read this and realise you forgot, cus i know you didn't mean it, and hey, i forget many birthdays too. (:

so yupp thanks everyone. ((:

haha special thanks to my family who kept me company, and jcy who sleptover at my place (: love you guys (:

jiamminn.

I was down with an acute case of the runs for the past 2 days, bless me.

Whilst I was lying lifelessly on the bed for hours on end, scenes from my life resonated, strangely randomly, in my head. Some scenes absolutely obscure. Others, painful. They culminated in a flashflood of memories which did little but aggravate that splitting headache that was alrdy tearing my head into two, all day.

I realised alot of things; being sick allows time for reflection.

I'm sorry for giving up so many things.

I'm sorry if I ever walked past you without smiling.

I'm sorry for ever wanting to give up on life cus I was beaten down, only once.

I'm sorry for ever trusting someone too much.

Enough of sorries, I told myself, when I came to this.

Embrace what is to come.

Haha shall attempt to do a chinese translation like mark.

Embrace what is to come.
拥抱要来的东西!

你现在可以了解我高级华文拿到A2时为什么那么惊喜!

Okay thats enough chinese for 24 hours.

My thoughts are in a whirl, my mind's a blank.

While Mok's conquering Mt K, I'm lagging at home, lying in bed. (Hope you're having fun!)

I miss my class.

I miss so many people.

I miss you!

On the bright side,

29/11's coming. (:

ahhhh has been so stressed up recently cus I discovered from chinzhihui that HCI wasn't offering H3 Econs (MOE) next yr and I DIDNT APPLY FOR SMU cus i thought, go MOE!

In the midst of appealing now! Hope it goes alright, i really like econs, and its my only chance at H3!

Cmon SMU SMU SMU! :D haha you know you want me right (:

Ahhh that aside, I AM SO SORRY to fangyi, and 4A. My meeting ended uber late on Monday, and I didn't go for class chalet cus my mum needed me home. ):

I AM SO SORRY! ):

ahhhhh. following monday. study session with regina, lisyn (and NICHOLAS?!?!)

hahaha. nicholas was a bigbig distractor (: but he was nice to treat us to drinks (after lunch) and 2 pizzas from pizza hut! (:

he was there cus he wanted to return my GC which i lent him for As cus our batch has the newest model with possible new functions. (: hahaha thankyou duddeee.

and he is rich, he called in a taxi. o.O

alrite. so hahaha ive nothing much to say! (:

im a happy girl. and i miss my class! i miss jinlong who's in msia! (maybe not as much as someone) haha. i miss regina and tls though i saw them just ytd! i miss yanqi cus i havent seen her since i passed her her medication! i miss mok mark leon though i just saw them at kbox last sat! i miss so so so so so many people!

most of all, i miss you ):

29/11.

okayyyyyy before anything,

watch this. addicted :D i love hsm3!

blog entry begins.

mmmmmmm.

hahaha regina once commented that i suck at blogging.

i'm not one to put up an argument! because i very well agree.

hahahaha. mok once said there are 3 types of bloggers! haha. which 3 i think i forgot. okay theres the emo bloggers. who blog about how meaningless life is. i guess its some phase people have to snap out of. the second group of bloggers! the recounters! these people provide an indepth narration of the day's happenings, peppered with personal thoughts and comments here and there. ahh the third type. okay shit i really don't rmb.

i dno what kind of a blogger i am! haha. a sucky one for sure.

the stuff im typing right now is not for people to read, for sure. its not for strangers (like you! haha) or friends to just come, read, and go away thinking. wahh this jiamin is a major crapper. hahaha she sucks at blogging. her sentences aren't complete. worst still, she doesn't start each new sentence with caps. and wahlao her vocab is like dunno what nonsense. for someone who gets an A1 for eng. its quite an embarrassment. im sorry mrs kan. ):

ahahaha. this is just my world (: where i rant, with the active vocab on the tip on my fingers. i type whatever comes to my mind. and as such, i dont find it very convenient to reach over and hit the shift key to make the starting alphabet of every sentence caps.

i find it utterly redundant.

no child from africa is going to starve because i didn't start my sentence with caps. no one is going to die because of this little act of ignorance- this laziness.

ahhhhhh. im a very different person when i blog and when im with people. my emo side comes out when im alone. when im thinking!

when im with people. i like seeing them happy. so im happy too. (: dont get me wrong im no putting up a front or anything. its just. idk. i like being around people. (: it makes me happy. okay showcase abit of vocab. it makes me exultant :D

-.- : regina hates this expression. so do i.

okay no offence mok! haha. i like bunny! and -.= but not -.-.

alrite. incongruence.

so i guess after reading this much of a blog entry (i wonder how many readers made it here), you can tell im not like regina, who blogs in a really entertaining manner, with massive recounts, done so well! she makes something boring actually sound significant.

im not like marke, who's able to get messages across with his unique and very personal sense of humour, sometimes even discrete messages! haha.

im not like leon, with his very down to earth, matteroffactly sense of blogging.

im not like yanqi, with her uber cute and innocent way of expression. the rawness of youth. at its best.

im definitely not like mok, with his superb analytical skills, and philosophical outlooks in life.

im just plain old me. which im not sure to like or not. haha.

ohwell!

i like ranting! i've just gotten a whole load off my chest (:

darling's gone off to japan till next saturday. haha will miss him loads. we kept saying, bye! take care! dont sleep late! bathe early! to each other before he left (: i hope he's having fun over there. i will miss you <3 color="#ff6600" size="5">HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CHRISTINAAAAAAA!!!!!

its been 5 yrs le! JCEY! LOVES YOU LOADS. (((((((((((((((:

okay i think i rant finish le. go do PnC. loves

jiammin

I find myself more and more pms-y of late.

I think I have alot on my mind. Not bad or emo stuff, not to worry haha (:

Just random things chucked in all corners. Sometimes I need to talk them out yknow (:

I need someone to talk to. To be there to listen. To be there to advise.

Was watching Shi Xiong Di off tudou.com.

omg i cried at the ending its srsly such a fantastic and touching show. i want 10 kids too please.

life has been boring being cooped up at home. i've so many things i want to do. so many people i want to go out with.

constrained.

needs to break free!

starting tmr. (:

Hey everyone (:

Reginaliew kicked me in the butt and got me to update.

Life has been so :D

If only these days of laxing, awesome times with friends, lazing around watching the clouds float by; never ended.

CLASS CHALET :D

Highly anticipated event by all in 08S6V (:

Reginaliew and I both agreed. Though it was only a short short 18 hours we spent together, it felt so much longer. I told her it was the longest time we've ever spent together (:

We did a myriad of whacky things (x

It started with marinating crew: regina meiting bunnymok yanqi jinlong coming to my house to marinate chicken and buy stuff one day before the chalet (:

We didnt do much marinating, but we had a great time.

I showed regina, jinlong, yanqi, bunnymok my sec one photo! hahahaha see their reaction:

HAHA Mok said i looked like some korean man! :X

hahahaha.

okay sooo. the chalet day started out with reginalyc coming over to my house in her parent's car! :D her parents are awfully sweet, helping us ferry all the food from yishun to pasir ris! :D Thankyou Mr and Mrs Liew (smith! haha)

arrived at pasir ris - 1st 2 people there. Stoned for awhile and then more and more people started turning up :D

Missed the freaking shuttle bus! :X 2 angry mobs boarded it before us and we had no choice but to settle for the COSTA SANDS bus. (x

walked alittle, played with corina's hair. and had a lot of fun :D

hahahahahaha. okay la. the chalet was rly cool :D best time tgt (:

played bridge the whole night, played stroke/heartattack and PIG (which i totally suck at).

BBQed :D meiting regina and shuzong even whipped up beehoon for the class it was rly yummy! cmon admit it la chongjinlong! :D

they excluded theDOUYA specially for me (or not) hahaha but still it was rly yummy :D

thennnnn. we had night cycling (: got headcounts along the way (: honestly we're so cute :D

bathed, played somemore, and did a whole load of random stuff! :D a few of us cycled to bungalow 8 to visit 6T haha but they threw exploding satchets at us! hahaha (: yaaa la we know you all just wanted to have fun :D

yay 6T/V power :D

okay.

argh then next day! cleaned up returned bikes :D

mark cidong and i got our advanced bd gifts! :D

thankyouuu so much 6V for the lovely srapebook :D

i will look at it every single day((:

xiexienimen! :D

yeppp! :D

i really dont know what else to say. order of events in this post are prob all screwed cus my head is damn groggy and i cant think properly! haha for a more indepth analysis of chalet events you could visit our lovely class blog! http://08s6vee.blogspot.com

orrrrr reginaliew's blog http://19regina91.blogspot.com

woohoooo. :D

All i know is. 6V's a superb class. It's probably the best most funky cutest class in HC (:

and im really glad to be a part of it.

6V's a class. where you know you won't ever feel excluded. everyone is in each others' hearts.

26 individuals. 1 heart.

I love you guys :D

COMING UP!:D

We're gonna plan more class stuff man :D

christmas partay is a must :D

any ideas post on cls blog! :D

6V LOVEEEEEE :D:D:D:D

Hey guys (:

Thankyou for everything ((:

I have cheered up (: i'm exultant now, in fact. (:

Thankyu guys loads. Hearts <3

anyw PW has come to a fantastic close :D I love JMLL. We're the best combination of spice and everything. I hope we get that A. (:

And MARKCHENG! hahaha he got a 24/24 for OP. Holy.

:D yayyyyy. i love 6V :D we're gonna have our bbq outing tmr :D

loveees everyone much :D

It came to a close, a quiet close.

As hard as it is, I'm trying to get used to the fact that it's over.

Trying not to think about the good memories, cus then I'll just break down and cry.

Trying.